Dear Ramji,
Upon my return send both you and Sundari, my deepest gratitude and regards. It was an amazing seminar on so many levels and not the least of which was organizational. It was smooth and so divine. Thank you both.
I left for the seminar thinking that I would contemplate “discipline” and my relationship with Ishwara. I returned with this in tenfold, if not in infinite increments. I continue to be in what would be considered an experiential bliss, while understanding my true nature is bliss. I keep climbing that pole Ramji, and when I come back down, I go right back up again!
I also found myself contemplating the nature of love. You there is only one love , the love of a dog and the love of a spouse are not different. And the penny dropped; I am love and it’s not divisible or quantifiable. It seems I don’t love people as much as I am love. And this allows for an incredible level of dispassion towards objects, including this meaty person. It’s a very cool but full state of love from which I can’t disconnect. It is the ultimate “connection”. Because it is me.
I also notice this very exuberant ‘I’ thought that keeps dancing with the idea that it has attained something. It is incessant and I really have to keep it in check and remind the thought that it is not real. That only the Actionless, Limitless and Non-dual state, the Self, is real. This is where great care must be taken. But when the ‘I’ thought is seen for what it is —apparently real — (mithya), then life opens the door to forever. It is so stunningly beautiful.
I had been hosting some friends over for meditation prior to coming to the seminar. I have been using Dyananda’s book The Value of Values as a starting point. At this point I’d really like to share more about Vedanta. Not to be a teacher but to share out of my love and also my recognition of people’s apparent suffering. I don’t need to, but it gives me great joy to contemplate Vedanta. I would make sure people are pointed to both you and Shiningworld. If you have any thoughts or guidance, I would really appreciate it. It really is the silence that we point to and the fullness of our infinite, actionless, limitless, awareness that is ever present. It’s amazing it can be so simple and yet so involved in terms of turning towards an inner life that can only be fulfilling.
I send you both much love and again gratitude.
Great e-mail, Karen! I loved it, tidied up the words a bit and will publish it on the website. I’m so glad you came and that you benefited so much. Of course you should share what you know with others. The understanding you expressed in this email is excellent.
Much love,
Ramji
