Seeker/finder: I listened to one of your talks driving home last night, where you said that the jerk in us just goes on being a jerk, enlightened or not – and it matters not. I love that because I realise there is nothing the jerk that I used to think I am has to worry about. I can stay seated as my Self and blissfully let the jerk do her thing. She can clean up her act or not. Hopefully, it’ll get cleaned up, but it makes no difference if her karma doesn’t include that. I see the paradox in even speaking about intentions or realisations. There is and isn’t anything to do. I’m immensely grateful to you for your input. It’s made all the difference.
And I have just twigged that the reason I’m dissatisfied is that I’m not thankful. I have all I could ever need or want of course because I’ve come to know the truth of myself. I know the essence of life and I know all that needs to be known. On top of that, I have an easy life because I’ve sacrificed an ordinary life for the prize of knowing the truth. And the fruit of that is having found a teacher and a teaching that is far, far more valuable than worldly success. On top of that, I’ve been blessed with the dispassion to be able to earn a living serving others. I give from the heart and I honour individuals through my work – but that doesn’t matter to anyone else. But I have been stupidly thinking I need MORE than all of this world, an intimate relationship with someone, for instance, which was just because I wasn’t intimate with myself. I was sitting on the top of the pile looking for the top of the pile! We are such fools.
Thank you for your faith in the truth of simply loving the Self (which is all) as being our primary objective. Gratitude is the one thought I lost sight of. I need nothing. Everything that is here in form is simply a reflection of the richness of the Self – me.
