Martin: Dear Ramji, I never wanted to bother you, since so many people are bothering you already, but I found out that you actively care about my growth.
Lately I noticed that events that used to have my full attention, sink my teeth into, don’t seem to affect me anymore. They are still there and I could make a lot of fuss, worry and project, but I notice I’m not doing that anymore. And that’s remarkable, since it is without any interference from my side. It’s most peculiar, like entering a magic clearing in a forest. Needless to say this phenomenon is utterly relieving. But it doesn’t feel at all like “bliss” but utterly unfamiliar. Somehow it feels not for real. I think I’ll have to get used to it. Or maybe it will be lost some day. Whatever…
~ Love to you
James: Hi, Martin.
Thanks for the lovely email! You need to pat yourself on the back for the forthright way that you have conducted your inquiry. Entering the “utterly relieving magic clearing” is confirmation of the fact that your practice is bearing fruit, that the knowledge of what you are is doing its work. Good for you! It does seem strange at first, not because it is, as you seem to understand. It is the most natural feeling, the bliss of just being. But if you’ve been a bit prickly and discontented for a long time, it does feel pretty strange.
Count yourself among the blessed and enjoy it! It won’t be lost. There may be moments when it seems to disappear but it is always there waiting. Keep up the good work.
~ Much love, James
