Dear Ramji and Sundari,
Thank you for the beautiful seminar at Suryalila and the recent satsangs posted. As always with Isvara, everyone and everything is perfectly taken care of at all times, and these satsangs were especially poignant.
For a while now, thanks to Vedanta (You!), the formerly constant desire to re-experience “what I know” seems to have dissipated. Outside of listening to, reading, and writing about Vedanta, for the sheer love of it, the craving for reconfirmation has been displaced by the fullness of everything.
The most recent satsangs posted have revealed what might be called “another face“ of that craving to experience the fullness of myself, in the form of the subtle idea that still something (meaning anything) about (my) experience could be wrong or missing.
Just a few days ago, for example, I was feeling bored and caught myself (at last) judging this experience to mean that something must not be right. Immediately the experience of boredom shifted to what it always was, the ordinary bliss of me, and the boredom aspect shrank to nothing other than silly Maya doing its thing “trying” to tempt Jivahood. Cool!
After reading these satsangs, I noticed how habitually this judgment arises along with any unwanted experience, and some space appeared “between” me and the reflexive momentum (Maya) to do this.
Ramji: That “gap” is freedom. In this case it empowers you not to go with the boredom/longing and “sink” into the ever-present bliss of your nature. It seems your sadhana is paying off. Good for you!
The phrase you both use often that “Mithya becomes Satya” (because there is no other option – to quote Sundari directly) took on a different meaning than it had before. To love every single aspect of life not only equally but fully.
Ramji: Amen!
What a difference, and there is plenty more to this contemplation to be sure!
Thank you for continually planing the rough edges.
Ramji: You’re most welcome. That’s my job.
