Hi Ramji,
I had something that troubled me the other day. I spoke with a friend who in fact said something you had to me. The troubling thought dropped back into the causal body. But something that I did not notice before was that it did not come back. The way I know this is that someone brought it up and I had totally forgotten about it. It was archived (where to, I don’t know). I have a distinct memory of you explaining this process to me 3 years ago. This is a revelation. I bet this is happening more often than I previously acknowledged. The subtle body just feels lighter around things and there is less tolerance for things with that feeling of agitation or weighing “me” down.
Ramji: The “lightness” means inquiry is working.
I have also been thinking about your explanation of adharma in terms of svadharma in that first chapter of Mandaka. I have got myself into situations where I thought the adharma was that I made a mistake, my behavior was not bigger, better, smarter (mithya). But now I am wondering if that was true. Perhaps the adharma was that I was not being authentic to myself.
Ramji: Inauthenticity is the only adharma. You are Dharma.
Trying to fit my values to samsaric values and hitting my head when I was delivered what was to be expected…agitation. It also goes back to motivations. This didn’t come from me making a mistake, but from this image or thought of “myself” being a mistake. Image management is a trap.
Ramji: Amen.
I mistook the lesson so the karma continued to disturb me. Because when karma is assimilated, as soon as the action/experience is complete, it drops back into the causal body without a trace, leaving me free to respond to what presents itself. That is the basis of karma yoga and is also freedom (moksa)! There is only consciousness then and time drops away. Unassimilated karma, i.e. desire, gives rise to time. If I am carrying something, especially an identity for myself (or if there is time), assimilation hasn’t happened.
Ramji: This is the essence of karma yoga!
I never imagined there would be someone I could ask these questions to. A large part of my life I can write off to sleepwalking or just plain pretending.
Love you, Ramji.
Ramji: You”re the best, X…! Sleep walking and pretending just about cover all of samsara. This is a really profound satsang.
