Ramji,
Interesting turn of events. My wife of 30 years is asking me for a divorce. Didn’t see that one coming. Isvara just never ceases to amaze me. Here I have really spent some serious time soul searching. Starting to go deeper into study and meditation. Meanwhile she is having internet affairs and wants to chase love with someone new. Funny how that works. 7 years ago when I was crazy and running around chasing tail she begged me to stay. Now it’s all changed. People define love for themselves. Guess I just have to roll with the punches. Won’t say it doesn’t hurt. But at the same time I don’t have a choice. Don’t think I’ll be doing the marriage thing again. I think I’m cured.
Love X
Dear X
Sometimes Isvara gives us a real uppercut. No choice but to roll with the punches. At the same time, the irony is hard to miss. What goes around comes around.
Much love,
Ramji
X… Yea. I feel like it is my time to atone. Maybe now the scales can be balanced karmicly. I know one thing. I know who I am. And I don’t need to go running after love and attention to sooth insecurities. It will hurt watching her move on with another man, but I will still love her and hope she finds the happiness she is looking for. Even though I have discovered for myself that it’s an illusion, she will have to discover that for herself in time also. And in ways that have nothing to do with me. Funny how God’s puts us together to grow with others who have the key to our growth just like we have a key theirs. At least in some aspect.
Ramji: Yes, life is about growth. Relationships come and go, only the Self remains.
