Dear Ramji
Hope all is well with you and Sundari, I know you are getting ready for your trip so when u get a chance reflect on my formulation below this please..
Contemplating all that I have heard from you and on the discussion that morning over breakfast in TL:
I AM before the mind ( all minds are the same one , includes intellect , memory , etc) , I am what animates these such that to say anything more than I am ( i.e. I think , I see, I reflect ,I know, etc) there is identification with what is illuminated .
As such then what I am is the the fabric by which the gunas/Isvara/maya can exist and present the apparent reality including a person named Peter who lately is stuck on trying to understand the riddle of sleep ( but as I learned whatever is to be known will not affect the light source by which the known is known and unknown ;unknown. I.e. pre intellect pre mind )
Maya/Isvara are but powers “in me” , to get mesmerized by these is missing the reality that I am which provides a field for this power to manifest…
This understanding does have an immense “feeling” if you can call it that one both humbling and liberating
Once identification with the mind recurs , there seems to be a hesitation ( not a fear but more humility, tears of gratitude, etc. ) to accept what is powering this apparent person with all of his shortcomings.
Love and respect and tones of missing the company of you , trust your input and guidance as always
Peter
Hi Peter,
Sorry for the delay replying but…same old story…busy as hell. I loved this email. Yes, to all of it, particularly the statement, “This understanding does have an immense “feeling” if you can call it that one both humbling and liberating.” I hope our paths meet again one fine day.
Much love,
James
