Sandra: At the end of the satsang, the clump of vasanas was fully hooked and I began to tease them out. One was a surprise, although it did assist me in coming to the final mithya conclusion for the night, with a bit of a twist.
I was born into a loving family unit which still continues today from a distance, minus our parents who showed us love and put boundaries in place.
Through no fault of their own, an incorrect perception of them occurred in this mind. I had realised this years ago. But nevertheless, this issue did arise from childhood.
I want to be recognised….. has continued very subtlety up to this stage, sometimes in what I have considered unfair ways, but, nevertheless, it was showing that I wanted the kudos for them. Ishwara makes no mistakes, as you often say.
I want to be recognised. Ultimately, what a great message if one takes the I…as…me… immortal, whole and complete and very ordinary awareness….. which I do.
With much love and gratitude
Sundari: Being recognized and acknowledged is such a poignant and deep need every person alive has, because love is paying attention. And without attention and love, the mind and heart wither, and can be damaged so deeply. It never ceases to amaze me what horrors ensue in people’s lives when love and attention are missing. So many people have not experienced being loved, or know how to love as a result. You would think this would come naturally seeing as love is our true nature, but it doesn’t. Maya is very powerful.
We need a sense of connection almost more than we need physical security. Loving attention of the true kind – the kind that sees and appreciates our ‘beingness’ – is precious, powerful and transformative. It can bring great depth and meaning to our lives, even save them.
Yet, how strange this is since there is no-one who can validate us or recognize who we are other than ourselves! Nobody actually gives or takes anything to or from us. We have to love ourselves or we can never love nor be loved by ‘another’. If we still believe that there is such as thing as ‘other’! Life is indeed a conundrum. Thank God we have found the I of the eye that sees, validates and appreciates itself, and is not looking for it anywhere else.
Well done to you for sticking so faithfully to your sadhana, and for being so honest about the make-up and needs of the ‘not’self’. It may not be real, but the person exists, and we must love them or fail at love. There is no pass on this one!
May you shine ever brightly in the light of your divine Self, the illuminator and essence of life.
With much love
Sundari
