Brahma Satyam
C: How can I ever express my gratitude. You pull me and I don’t know how many others through, time and time again. I was and still am very tired, more so than I noticed; which happens more often – sometimes a friend points it out; rest man, they say … 🙂
Sometimes I don’t notice physical pain either, or too late – it’s useful but tricky…
I don’t want to waste your time – and so I decided to take better care of my tiredness when I write to you – and in general.
Nonetheless, when tired and so meandering, it’s ok – and in spite of a few things, even blissful. A few obstacles showed up and I am removing them. Some odd lingering convictions, some habits; and certainly a (now temporal) attitude pseudo-problem; thinking of God as other and fighting it – but every time I remove Isvara, I remove jiva and remain. Peace. Am.
I felt an odd guilt by taking out God – in the religious sense, I mean. Maybe the tiredness showed this and a few other things as well, so let’s use it 🙂 Much of what you tell me works as confirmations – which makes me very happy like I know better than I sometimes realize, and also you give words to matters I see but have no good words for.
Sundari: Who feels tired, blissful, guilty, takes out Isvara, Jiva, God (religious sense or not), or who has no words? I.e., who is the discriminator removing the non-essential variables so that only you remain? It is you, THE one and only, I. Self-knowledge apparently personified, free of the person, free of doership. Free.
C: Short before I – or mind, got tired I often woke up with Brahma Satyam Jagan Mithya Jivo Bramaiva Na Parah.
So, I will read your reply again and take it in more.
Sundari: Even if from a tamasic mind, the light of Self shines through brightly. Yes indeed, most of what you write to me is a confirmation of how much you have assimilated and could never forget, no matter how tired your body/mind is. The tiredness allows the doer to slip into the words you use sometimes, but you are not actually identified with it. You always objectify it.
You have no problems if all you know at any moment is Brahma Satyam Jagan Mithya Jivo Bramaiva Na Parah. Satya and mithya are no more because there is no mithya for the Self. The two orders of reality are one, not different but not the same. Self-knowledge instantly dissolves any duality arising, and the problem the jiva has with its problems because it is not a problem to itself anymore!
Take care and feel held always and all ways by the truth of who you are
Much love
Sundari
